See, there's three kinds of people: dicks, pussies, and assholes. Pussies think everyone can get along, and dicks just want to fuck all the time without thinking it through. But then you got your assholes. And all the assholes want us to shit all over everything! So, pussies may get mad at dicks once in a while, because pussies get fucked by dicks. But dicks also fuck assholes. And if they didn't fuck the assholes, you know what you'd get? You'd get your dick and your pussy all covered in shit!
~Team America
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
The Worst Pain
Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life .... You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like maybe we should just be friends or how very perceptive turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination; not just in the mind, it's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love
The worst pain in the world is knowing that he meant everything to you but you meant nothing to him. But, life goes on once you realize your own strength inside of you: the strength to realize that saying goodbye doesn't mean that you don't love the person anymore or that you don't want to keep them in your life. It doesn't mean you're weak. It means that you've the strength to let go and live your life to the fullest because you've learned that life really is good. You are strong and can only be as happy as you choose...
The worst pain in the world is knowing that he meant everything to you but you meant nothing to him. But, life goes on once you realize your own strength inside of you: the strength to realize that saying goodbye doesn't mean that you don't love the person anymore or that you don't want to keep them in your life. It doesn't mean you're weak. It means that you've the strength to let go and live your life to the fullest because you've learned that life really is good. You are strong and can only be as happy as you choose...
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Why??
Every single person in this world waits for love in their life. Some people say love didn't come to them but it was right in front of their eyes. Some people wait a lifetime for true love, I should know, I'm still waiting for my true love. It's amazing the things you realize when you lose someone: you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could have a million times, you take for granted the days spent doing nothing when you could have been with them. Anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives, but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before. You'll never understand why I hurt so much because you're not the one who is crying, you're not the one who is left behind, you're not the one who loved too much, and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone. I cried when I knew I lost you, afraid I had lost it all. Then I realized that losing you, didn't have to mean I lost me. The fear about losing a loved one is the fear of change itself. Being used to one person, day after day, then to one day wake up all alone, a whole new day. Think of it as a chance to start over to learn from the past and make a brand new beginning. They say, 'Time heals all wounds.' If that is true, then I guess mine go deeper than pain. There are no words to choose over losing you. I guess I found out out too late, and now all I feel is heartbreak that only hurts when I breathe. Grief is a profound part of recovery and new life. Tears of regrets, remorse and despair waters the roots of love and life itself. To deny and avoid the hurts and pains of life's losses is to negate life's importance . Remember me when you are gone, far to the beyond, away from me. A journey I cannot go with you on, even though you are going for good. I have tried for tears not to fall from my eyes. Keep alive the beautiful times we share, and take it to heart that my love for you is ever sure. Remember me. Oh, remember me, for memory may fade but they never die.
I believe the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name. Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go...
I believe the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name. Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go...
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
I Am The Perfect Girl
I Am The Perfect Girl.. And only those whom are important will see that.
See I'm the perfect girl is different from anything "normal guys" want from a girl. The things I am aren't crazy, just things that are important to me. I am a girl to that loves like she has never another guy. The kind of love that lasts forever. Where she looks at you and no other man(except family members) matter's to her as much as you do. Where she needs you and only you, no matter what her friends or family say because despite everything, in the end she knows that it will be just you and her...forever. A girl that will sit and watch wrestling, Family Guy, South Park, maybe some football or hockey, Law&Order, Intervention, any stupid reality show and not complain and in the same hand, while he sits and watches all my silly Lifetime programing, Saving Grace, Grey's Anatomy, American Idol, or Dancing with the Stars. A girl who is confident and secure about herself. Who doesn't need to dress slutty or with all of her stuff hanging out or always complaining about her weight(you started dating me at that weight and you think Im hot like that). She knows that you think and know she is the most beautiful girl in the world and that's all that matters, not what other girls think(bullshit) or if guys think they're hot or to know that guys still think their hot but in the same hand can dress well. But she knows no matter what she looks like you will love her. If all her hair falls out or something worse, you will love her and still think she beautiful. Waking up in the morning will drool on her face and her hair going every which way but loose, after snoring all night, after she gets to drunk and has puke on her and your holding her hair and you take her in and clean her up, when she's all done up because your going to some fancy place to eat like Crackel Barrel, Red Robin, Outback, BW3's, or even Olive Garden. Or when she just in a sweatshirt and jeans with her hair in a ponytail or when she comes over late in an old t-shirt and pajama bottoms or even hotter when she wants to wear one of your wife-beaters :), or the best when your waiting at the altar and she walking towards you and she is at her most beautiful or just after giving birth to your first child. A girl who is secure and doesn't care or need approval from anyone but you, the only person that should matter. You are her entire world and in turn she is yours. A girl that can go out and drink and have a good time and realize if you do something stupid when your smashed, it didn't mean anything. A girl that puts her past behind her and gives you a fair chance because you plan on treating her like the queen she is and you want the same back. A girl that realizes that you are going to love her stronger and more deeply than any other guy could or ever would. You would die for her and do anything to make her happy. A girl that would stay with you no matter what, good times and bad, money or no money. If you had to live in a cardboard box, she would be right there with you! Why? Because no matter what happens, you have each other and your undying true love will get you through. A girl that can be a girl but at the same time hang out with your guy friends(and not date them, ever). She can go camping, 4-wheelin, go out on the boat and drink, will play video games(and be super cute while doing it), can play with your brothers and sisters, will wrestle around with you, joke around with your mom, go and play on the playground with you, go shopping and make you wait hours while she tries things on, can do a JagerBomb and drink a Bud Light but also will drink a girly drink like Sex on the Beach. A girl that likes to go out on the town but doesn't have to. You can sit and watch TV or DVD's or just lay together cuddling and listen to music, maybe drive around looking for "backroads" or a playground to fool around on. A girl that wants to learn about things you know and she doesn't know about and then you get them addicted to them like wrestling for instance. A girl that knows your sometimes jealous and to a point like it because instead of thinking your insecure, she know your that way because you love her and don't want to lose her and she knows that no matter what a guy says to her he would have sex with her if he was giving the chance. And in turn she is jealous also. She doesn't want some hussy taken her man even though there's no chance of that. A girl that makes you her number one concern, because above all else she knows that she is the most important thing in your life. A girl that can admit her problems and addictions and you talk about both your problem, get them out of the way and move on. A girl that is a "lady in the street" but a "freak in the bed". A girl that spends as much time with you as she can. You both have jobs and school but she makes the time to be with you, just like you do no matter the distance. If you haven't seen each other in almost 2 weeks, who should you be seeing? We all know that answer! I want a man that knows that answer! You have your "friend time" but you understand that being together is the best thing in the world. A man that you can trust, that has no secrets that he keeps from you. He opens her life to you and your free to ask questions. No hidden things or things that are private. You have no secrets to keep from him and he is free to ask also. A guy that will love you forever and never look back...
I am a Direct Care Worker(I work with handicapped people)...
I don't think I am asking for too much. Maybe I am or maybe I am just a dumbass but I do believe in true love and I think mine's out there, maybe he's probably with some door knob type of girl right now or sleeping alone. I have to have faith in true love. I usually never have a positive outlook but when it comes to this, I have to...
See I'm the perfect girl is different from anything "normal guys" want from a girl. The things I am aren't crazy, just things that are important to me. I am a girl to that loves like she has never another guy. The kind of love that lasts forever. Where she looks at you and no other man(except family members) matter's to her as much as you do. Where she needs you and only you, no matter what her friends or family say because despite everything, in the end she knows that it will be just you and her...forever. A girl that will sit and watch wrestling, Family Guy, South Park, maybe some football or hockey, Law&Order, Intervention, any stupid reality show and not complain and in the same hand, while he sits and watches all my silly Lifetime programing, Saving Grace, Grey's Anatomy, American Idol, or Dancing with the Stars. A girl who is confident and secure about herself. Who doesn't need to dress slutty or with all of her stuff hanging out or always complaining about her weight(you started dating me at that weight and you think Im hot like that). She knows that you think and know she is the most beautiful girl in the world and that's all that matters, not what other girls think(bullshit) or if guys think they're hot or to know that guys still think their hot but in the same hand can dress well. But she knows no matter what she looks like you will love her. If all her hair falls out or something worse, you will love her and still think she beautiful. Waking up in the morning will drool on her face and her hair going every which way but loose, after snoring all night, after she gets to drunk and has puke on her and your holding her hair and you take her in and clean her up, when she's all done up because your going to some fancy place to eat like Crackel Barrel, Red Robin, Outback, BW3's, or even Olive Garden. Or when she just in a sweatshirt and jeans with her hair in a ponytail or when she comes over late in an old t-shirt and pajama bottoms or even hotter when she wants to wear one of your wife-beaters :), or the best when your waiting at the altar and she walking towards you and she is at her most beautiful or just after giving birth to your first child. A girl who is secure and doesn't care or need approval from anyone but you, the only person that should matter. You are her entire world and in turn she is yours. A girl that can go out and drink and have a good time and realize if you do something stupid when your smashed, it didn't mean anything. A girl that puts her past behind her and gives you a fair chance because you plan on treating her like the queen she is and you want the same back. A girl that realizes that you are going to love her stronger and more deeply than any other guy could or ever would. You would die for her and do anything to make her happy. A girl that would stay with you no matter what, good times and bad, money or no money. If you had to live in a cardboard box, she would be right there with you! Why? Because no matter what happens, you have each other and your undying true love will get you through. A girl that can be a girl but at the same time hang out with your guy friends(and not date them, ever). She can go camping, 4-wheelin, go out on the boat and drink, will play video games(and be super cute while doing it), can play with your brothers and sisters, will wrestle around with you, joke around with your mom, go and play on the playground with you, go shopping and make you wait hours while she tries things on, can do a JagerBomb and drink a Bud Light but also will drink a girly drink like Sex on the Beach. A girl that likes to go out on the town but doesn't have to. You can sit and watch TV or DVD's or just lay together cuddling and listen to music, maybe drive around looking for "backroads" or a playground to fool around on. A girl that wants to learn about things you know and she doesn't know about and then you get them addicted to them like wrestling for instance. A girl that knows your sometimes jealous and to a point like it because instead of thinking your insecure, she know your that way because you love her and don't want to lose her and she knows that no matter what a guy says to her he would have sex with her if he was giving the chance. And in turn she is jealous also. She doesn't want some hussy taken her man even though there's no chance of that. A girl that makes you her number one concern, because above all else she knows that she is the most important thing in your life. A girl that can admit her problems and addictions and you talk about both your problem, get them out of the way and move on. A girl that is a "lady in the street" but a "freak in the bed". A girl that spends as much time with you as she can. You both have jobs and school but she makes the time to be with you, just like you do no matter the distance. If you haven't seen each other in almost 2 weeks, who should you be seeing? We all know that answer! I want a man that knows that answer! You have your "friend time" but you understand that being together is the best thing in the world. A man that you can trust, that has no secrets that he keeps from you. He opens her life to you and your free to ask questions. No hidden things or things that are private. You have no secrets to keep from him and he is free to ask also. A guy that will love you forever and never look back...
I am a Direct Care Worker(I work with handicapped people)...
I don't think I am asking for too much. Maybe I am or maybe I am just a dumbass but I do believe in true love and I think mine's out there, maybe he's probably with some door knob type of girl right now or sleeping alone. I have to have faith in true love. I usually never have a positive outlook but when it comes to this, I have to...
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Good Song!
"It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart Without saying a word you can light up the dark Try as I may I could never explain What I hear when you don't say a thing The smile on your face lets me know that you need me There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me The touch of your hand says you'll ca...tch me if ever I fall You say it best when you say nothing at all"
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
intimacy vs. sex... Thank you Madea
I enjoy intimacy more then Sex. Guys that I'm talking to think me as weird because oh you're such a tease blah blah blah you keep touchin me like this and its being a tease; or you don't like me cuz you never start things... I don't want sex from you! I just want you! i want to feel close, feel special, I want to feel your intimacy not sex. Realized this after watching Diary of a Mad Black Woman. :)
One of my favorite lines from the movie Diary of a mad black woman by Tyler Perry is the when Helen is writes in her diary "When did I get here? Somewhere out of all the pain came a man who was strong...beautiful...sensitive...and Christian...He chose to give me something better...he gave me intimacy” -emphasis on the intimacy. And this of course is about her love interest Orlando/Shemar Moore (Thank you God for people like him remind us of the beautiful works of your hand. Amen)
"We both wanted to make love, but he gave me something greater: Intimacy"
“What is Intimacy?
Today, the word intimacy has taken on sexual connotations. But it is much more than that. It includes all the different dimensions of our lives -- yes, the physical, but also the social, emotional, mental and spiritual aspects as well. Intimacy really means total life sharing. And haven't we all had the desire at one time or another for closeness, for oneness, for sharing our life with someone totally? Marshall Hodge wrote a book called Your Fear of Love. In it he says, "We long for moments of expressions of love, closeness and tenderness, but frequently, at the critical point, we often draw back. We are afraid of closeness. We are afraid of love." Later in the same book Hodge states, "The closer you come to somebody, the greater potential there is for pain." It is the fear of pain that often drives us away from finding true intimacy.”
So we can draw that intimacy is beyond sex, it is total life sharing. How then as young Christians can we have a healthy sex-free intimate relationship? Is that even possible? Especially since today sex seems to be “trendy” in the world we live in.
One of my favorite lines from the movie Diary of a mad black woman by Tyler Perry is the when Helen is writes in her diary "When did I get here? Somewhere out of all the pain came a man who was strong...beautiful...sensitive...and Christian...He chose to give me something better...he gave me intimacy” -emphasis on the intimacy. And this of course is about her love interest Orlando/Shemar Moore (Thank you God for people like him remind us of the beautiful works of your hand. Amen)
"We both wanted to make love, but he gave me something greater: Intimacy"
“What is Intimacy?
Today, the word intimacy has taken on sexual connotations. But it is much more than that. It includes all the different dimensions of our lives -- yes, the physical, but also the social, emotional, mental and spiritual aspects as well. Intimacy really means total life sharing. And haven't we all had the desire at one time or another for closeness, for oneness, for sharing our life with someone totally? Marshall Hodge wrote a book called Your Fear of Love. In it he says, "We long for moments of expressions of love, closeness and tenderness, but frequently, at the critical point, we often draw back. We are afraid of closeness. We are afraid of love." Later in the same book Hodge states, "The closer you come to somebody, the greater potential there is for pain." It is the fear of pain that often drives us away from finding true intimacy.”
So we can draw that intimacy is beyond sex, it is total life sharing. How then as young Christians can we have a healthy sex-free intimate relationship? Is that even possible? Especially since today sex seems to be “trendy” in the world we live in.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Today was a good Day- I think the depression is over
All the times I write in this thing its cuz of this or that; well this time things went awesome! Since yesterday! Went to a new church... had a service from 11a-130.. very long, but very rewarding; he was very easy to relate to.. then had some awesome breakfast at bombers. Then took a well needed nap went to work.. work was good; reminds me of why I'm going to school. Then came home and got my desk all cleaned off... didn't realize the top of my desk was brown.. lol. Woke up this morning wasn't too awfully tired.. had a good day at work... then came home.. found out I have a job interview tomorrow... looks positive... wish me luck *crosses fingers* then I spent a good hr getting math homework done.. actually got the hang of things... wow Algebra making sense.. wha?? lol. Got a free fish tank! 55 gal and stand! free! $200 for free! i love karma! Then got my car back.. and found a converter for only $20 here in Ypsi. THen had a good easy shift with Eoneda.. sucks her and I are coming to an end. :( 1 year gone glad I kept a job over a year just to be given a 2 weeks notice! GAH! ok ne whoo today good day.. tomorrow will be better. I'm starting my work out regimen... so i got an interview at 830a. then got math.. i actually got all my hw done.. then gotta go review this psych.. haven't been to that class in like 2 weeks! oops... got a test that opens tom... then I hvae to throw together my swrk paper for class. then after class I gotta take this math test. that my teacher so gracefully extended for me.. then gotta work out.. then my chica is comin to take me out to dinner! whom i haven't seen lynae in forever! so tom will be a good day.. then perhaps scrubbing my new tank clean for my baby. And move her in.. speaking of which i gotta go branch hunting so then she has something to climb onto. comfy bed here a come... and yet somehow during the process of giving my apartment a face lift i arranged it unknowingly that I can lay in my bed and watch my tv in the other room :) ya tv and bed!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Sick & Tired
i'm just sick and tired of putting all my effort into something and have it turn out to be so perfect and then it just gets taken away like a snap of my fingers
.. everything.. work.. school.. this retarted excuse of a relationship that i was working on the fact its been what.. 2.. 3 years... and yet somehow why am I not over adam?! Probably explains why it hurts so much when I kept myself so gaurded for so long and let one single person in a little.. they came moved into my heart and just up and left.. "oh me and my x are about to get back together and it'll help if you don't call or text me.. but its ok if you stop by the shop"... i can't call or text him.. but when I need him to help me like yesterday he's there... when i go out of my way up to the shop where he works we have a great time while he works.. just great times and conversation.. like nothing is wrong.. then reality kicks in.. why the heck am i doing this when he's treating me this way.. why do i sign myself up for this?!
the more people.. not just guys i meet the more i like my dogs I keep rereading my poem of why i'm single.. trying to build my walls back up trying to harden up trying to reassure myself that things will pan out... this is not the end.. you won't end up along like your 84 year old grandma who lives by herself and is going crazy inside her house of which she refuses to get out of.. admist all your friends who are already having kids and getting married... things will pan out but its not looking that way..
They say you need to make yourself whole and be happy with yourself before somebody will want you.. which is true and understandable... But how do I fill this deep black abyss of a hole? God? New friends? Getting more physically fit? Better job?
.. everything.. work.. school.. this retarted excuse of a relationship that i was working on the fact its been what.. 2.. 3 years... and yet somehow why am I not over adam?! Probably explains why it hurts so much when I kept myself so gaurded for so long and let one single person in a little.. they came moved into my heart and just up and left.. "oh me and my x are about to get back together and it'll help if you don't call or text me.. but its ok if you stop by the shop"... i can't call or text him.. but when I need him to help me like yesterday he's there... when i go out of my way up to the shop where he works we have a great time while he works.. just great times and conversation.. like nothing is wrong.. then reality kicks in.. why the heck am i doing this when he's treating me this way.. why do i sign myself up for this?!
the more people.. not just guys i meet the more i like my dogs I keep rereading my poem of why i'm single.. trying to build my walls back up trying to harden up trying to reassure myself that things will pan out... this is not the end.. you won't end up along like your 84 year old grandma who lives by herself and is going crazy inside her house of which she refuses to get out of.. admist all your friends who are already having kids and getting married... things will pan out but its not looking that way..
They say you need to make yourself whole and be happy with yourself before somebody will want you.. which is true and understandable... But how do I fill this deep black abyss of a hole? God? New friends? Getting more physically fit? Better job?
Stuck in a Rut
This morning all started with the railroad tracks eating my car so it broke my car; got in trouble with the 1st job... got in a fight with dad over the car; drove the car home at like 25mph all the way back to clinton which took like an hr and half of my day that i did not have. jenni and i got into a fight over friggin 20 bucks... cuz she got her bf into our business and he just started running his mouth..so he shut off my internet which made me miss my testing window which mad e me fail it after i spent all this time studying for it... then so they wouldn't give me my kiys back so i had to go spend more money i did not have to go buy new locks to my house...
so iw as like 1/;2 hr late to my second job messing with the stupid locks.. so then got home to a dead phone to a voicemail from my second boss i never called her back then finally got the internet on my phone to work and chattd with you and just kept getting frustrated so i just went for a run... ended up running into some douchbags racist bastards just harrasing the crap out of me so its like i friggin give up
went to bed way to late then woke up to my mom pounding on my door cuz i turned my ringer off to wisk me away to the airport taking up time i needed to finish homework to go get a flu shot... and here i am cuz by the time we got back it was to late to go to class
and yet on top of all of these i've been trying to get out of this rut of a depression spree i'm in i hate it i'm too lazy to do half the things i need to do my procrastination is at an all time high my best friend is moving at the end of the month i still haven't found another job.. my two jobs that i do have keep canceling hours on me... money is retartedly tight.. and its just seriously frustrating.
i'm trying to find a church to get into out here but everyone is so caught up in their ignorance its like people forget the fact that we are talking about church not a club house... oh and to top the cake... my relationship tightrope has been so retarted... not even goign to go there... butt hats what screwed up me going to church cuz i was going with him.
i just keep finding myself resorting to going to bed and i hate that... i hate the fact that righ tnwo i'm fighting so hard to not to go to bed.. its not cuz i'm tired.. shoot i went to bed at 11. and didn't wake up til 8.. thats the most sleep i've gotten in forever... its just cuz i dno't want to stay up.. its not cuz i don't have a gazillion things to do here around the house, or the gadzooks amount of homework.. i just don't want to be here.
here...
my house... ypsi..
school.. work..
thats why i was traveling so much i did not want to be here. to be surrounded by my so called "friends" my jobs which i'm hanging onto my threads... my school which makes me feel dumber day by day.. oh it'll pay off keep doing it... ypsi cuz its ghetto trash that got kickd out of detroit... my house reminding me of all the good times i use to have in here... or even outside now cuz its retartedly cold
so iw as like 1/;2 hr late to my second job messing with the stupid locks.. so then got home to a dead phone to a voicemail from my second boss i never called her back then finally got the internet on my phone to work and chattd with you and just kept getting frustrated so i just went for a run... ended up running into some douchbags racist bastards just harrasing the crap out of me so its like i friggin give up
went to bed way to late then woke up to my mom pounding on my door cuz i turned my ringer off to wisk me away to the airport taking up time i needed to finish homework to go get a flu shot... and here i am cuz by the time we got back it was to late to go to class
and yet on top of all of these i've been trying to get out of this rut of a depression spree i'm in i hate it i'm too lazy to do half the things i need to do my procrastination is at an all time high my best friend is moving at the end of the month i still haven't found another job.. my two jobs that i do have keep canceling hours on me... money is retartedly tight.. and its just seriously frustrating.
i'm trying to find a church to get into out here but everyone is so caught up in their ignorance its like people forget the fact that we are talking about church not a club house... oh and to top the cake... my relationship tightrope has been so retarted... not even goign to go there... butt hats what screwed up me going to church cuz i was going with him.
i just keep finding myself resorting to going to bed and i hate that... i hate the fact that righ tnwo i'm fighting so hard to not to go to bed.. its not cuz i'm tired.. shoot i went to bed at 11. and didn't wake up til 8.. thats the most sleep i've gotten in forever... its just cuz i dno't want to stay up.. its not cuz i don't have a gazillion things to do here around the house, or the gadzooks amount of homework.. i just don't want to be here.
here...
my house... ypsi..
school.. work..
thats why i was traveling so much i did not want to be here. to be surrounded by my so called "friends" my jobs which i'm hanging onto my threads... my school which makes me feel dumber day by day.. oh it'll pay off keep doing it... ypsi cuz its ghetto trash that got kickd out of detroit... my house reminding me of all the good times i use to have in here... or even outside now cuz its retartedly cold
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
I'm doing Me
Im focused on getting my life where it should be and im not running up behind anybody to make them feel better...Understand where im at or don't try to b...e in my life cuz im not stopping...Im gone keep it moving for me!!!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Why Art is so Important Brainstorming Session...On paper
“The man who has been properly nurtured in this area [the Arts], will be keenly aware of things which have been neglected, things not beautifully made by art or nature. He will rightly resent them, he will praise beautiful things, rejoice in them, receive them into his soul, be nurtured by them and become good and beautiful in character”.
-Plato
“What is Art?” The formula they developed to define a work of art - what makes the art object special - was the idea that Art as a concept is both an Object and a Quality. Art is an object - a physical, tangible thing - but it possesses a special Quality that makes it a work of Art. For the Ancient Greek philosophers this special Quality was Beauty. They believed that Beauty was a quality within the art object itself; it inhabited an object created by the hands of the artist. In other words, a very beautiful object, created by the hand of man, was a work of art.
Art Object, possessing the special Quality of Beauty, would trigger in the viewer a feeling that we now call “the aesthetic experience”. An aesthetic experience is one in which an object’s beauty moves us on a deeply intellectual, emotional or spiritual level. You are affected by the work of art; you are moved by it; its beauty touches you on some deep level. This is what separates art objects from common objects
define the Object, the Quality and the Aesthetic Experience?
“art (art), n. 1. The quality, production, or expression of what is beautiful, appealing, or of more than ordinary significance”.
Ok. They do mention quality, production (the object) and beauty - but “appealing, or of more than ordinary significance”? At noon today, I will be hungry for lunch and I will have in front of me an object (my sandwich) that I made with my own two hands. Because I am hungry, the sandwich will be very appealing, and will have, for me at that moment, more than ordinary significance. Is it a work of Art? I don’t think so.
There is really no such thing as Art. There are only artists
-Plato
“What is Art?” The formula they developed to define a work of art - what makes the art object special - was the idea that Art as a concept is both an Object and a Quality. Art is an object - a physical, tangible thing - but it possesses a special Quality that makes it a work of Art. For the Ancient Greek philosophers this special Quality was Beauty. They believed that Beauty was a quality within the art object itself; it inhabited an object created by the hands of the artist. In other words, a very beautiful object, created by the hand of man, was a work of art.
Art Object, possessing the special Quality of Beauty, would trigger in the viewer a feeling that we now call “the aesthetic experience”. An aesthetic experience is one in which an object’s beauty moves us on a deeply intellectual, emotional or spiritual level. You are affected by the work of art; you are moved by it; its beauty touches you on some deep level. This is what separates art objects from common objects
define the Object, the Quality and the Aesthetic Experience?
“art (art), n. 1. The quality, production, or expression of what is beautiful, appealing, or of more than ordinary significance”.
Ok. They do mention quality, production (the object) and beauty - but “appealing, or of more than ordinary significance”? At noon today, I will be hungry for lunch and I will have in front of me an object (my sandwich) that I made with my own two hands. Because I am hungry, the sandwich will be very appealing, and will have, for me at that moment, more than ordinary significance. Is it a work of Art? I don’t think so.
There is really no such thing as Art. There are only artists
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Student of Zen
i am Raging calm, collective and cunning. i am the personality of Budo. a key to unlocking a complete nothingness in a world void of everything. to understand is to complete the incompleted, it would be like an artless art consisting of the animal fragments of nothing, teaming with small disconnected notions that are insufficient to form any rational thought of me or my personality.
hmm the describing of myself is limited considering anything i say may be bais
hmm the describing of myself is limited considering anything i say may be bais
A Domination in the Relationship
....the truth runs deeper than that and we both know it. You may be very accomplished in your daily life, but you will never be complete until a truly dominant man rules you. You crave the strong hand and creative mind of a physically powerful and attractive man. A dark man whose dominant nature runs to his core. By his side your cares and fears melt away as you are finally free to release yourself and soar. Deep down you ache to serve this man who inspires you and commands your respect. You long to be disciplined, tested, and restrained by this man, but most importantly, you seek this man who values friendships, family, and all that life has to offer as much as you do... Release yourself, Let go!
You're like an Egg
"In life you must live and experience things before your character can be molded, lest you walk thru life like you're an egg - beautiful and perfect on the outside but so insecure that the wrong touch "shatters" you"
Monday, September 14, 2009
All 4s
If you want to know, then ask. If you to want heal, then speak. If you want to learn, then listen. If you want to submit, then surrender. If you want to love, then you must do all four.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
The Addict
I’m going through withdrawals as your body calls
I feel myself shake as I wake
The sound of your voice or the scent of your cologne easily sends me to my doom
Just the thought of your touch can blow me up like a balloon
As I lay here consumed filled with so much lust that I might bust
The yearning desire is like an undying fire
Burning continually thinking of you and me
Then I sit up and sigh thinking of why
I should be able to past this test that is put on my flesh
It comes against my will and sends a cold chill
Going up my spine not wanting to decline after all your mine
But is this really true if I’m not married to you
You and I are fine but our actions need changing
Trying to fight off these hormones that are raging
Especially when your body has my number on speed dial
Not wanting to ignore the call that’ll keep me busy for a while
Still I have to think twice because I’ve been bought with a price
But I fiend like an addict convinced that I have to have it
Plus when we do it I feel so close and eventually I’ll propose
Well that’s a possibility but would it be hurried by my own heightened sexuality
Feeling like such a mess going through this stress knowing you’ll contest
Saying my point of view is distorted and detached from reality
Then do whatever you can to appeal to me
Appeasing my request because it’s best realizing what will come next
That time when I’m weak and we creep in the sheets
You got what I crave so I put away my conscious and misbehave
I want a fix just like I’m a stoner
Not knowing how to say no when you’re on top of me while you got a boner
After all I care about you and I believe you feel the same
But the things that we do cause me to feel shame
And these feelings will linger until I have your wedding band on my finger
Being on the level of an alcoholic needing rehab
Trying to be good while my body wants to be bad and I hope you’re not mad
At this point it’s more than sex we make love
But I’m not married to you so I’m cheating on the one above
Please don’t look and stare saying I’m being unfair
I know that we have a connection deeper than this addiction that we share
Maybe if we stop it’ll take our relationship to a higher position
As we seek help from the great high physician
No longer having our minds being mad
Making it through the process of rehab
I feel myself shake as I wake
The sound of your voice or the scent of your cologne easily sends me to my doom
Just the thought of your touch can blow me up like a balloon
As I lay here consumed filled with so much lust that I might bust
The yearning desire is like an undying fire
Burning continually thinking of you and me
Then I sit up and sigh thinking of why
I should be able to past this test that is put on my flesh
It comes against my will and sends a cold chill
Going up my spine not wanting to decline after all your mine
But is this really true if I’m not married to you
You and I are fine but our actions need changing
Trying to fight off these hormones that are raging
Especially when your body has my number on speed dial
Not wanting to ignore the call that’ll keep me busy for a while
Still I have to think twice because I’ve been bought with a price
But I fiend like an addict convinced that I have to have it
Plus when we do it I feel so close and eventually I’ll propose
Well that’s a possibility but would it be hurried by my own heightened sexuality
Feeling like such a mess going through this stress knowing you’ll contest
Saying my point of view is distorted and detached from reality
Then do whatever you can to appeal to me
Appeasing my request because it’s best realizing what will come next
That time when I’m weak and we creep in the sheets
You got what I crave so I put away my conscious and misbehave
I want a fix just like I’m a stoner
Not knowing how to say no when you’re on top of me while you got a boner
After all I care about you and I believe you feel the same
But the things that we do cause me to feel shame
And these feelings will linger until I have your wedding band on my finger
Being on the level of an alcoholic needing rehab
Trying to be good while my body wants to be bad and I hope you’re not mad
At this point it’s more than sex we make love
But I’m not married to you so I’m cheating on the one above
Please don’t look and stare saying I’m being unfair
I know that we have a connection deeper than this addiction that we share
Maybe if we stop it’ll take our relationship to a higher position
As we seek help from the great high physician
No longer having our minds being mad
Making it through the process of rehab
Monday, August 17, 2009
Never make anyone a priority when they only see you as an option
People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel - Maya Angelou
Single..This is why
A lot of people have been either asking me or wondering why am I single. Anybody that knows me understands that I can have someone with ease. This is not to sound cocky it's the truth. So they wonder if I can be with someone right now why don't I. Honestly it would be nice to have a guy right now but I have too many things going on in my life right now to drag somebody in the middle of it. I think about it a lot but it's just not as deep as it is to others. It's sad to me that so many people seemingly can not go on with life without a significant other. It's even sadder that a lot of people just act wild and have sex with so many people that they loose count. Why don't I have a boyfriend? Mainly because it's not the right time. Plus I don't want to settle for just anyone. I have standards and I want the other person to have some as well that refuses to settle just because I turn them on or I'm a nice girl. Why don't I just act a fool and have sex with all these guys that's more than willing to do so because it's not beneficial to me. I've struggled with having sex before. I'm not going to lie it was fun but honestly it's not worth the drama. Plus most importantly my body is a temple and honestly I refuse to allow someone to come in while someone else comes out as if my body is a revolving door. Trust and believe besides the person that I've had sex with the only other person that will be able to claim that truthfully will be the one that I am with whole heartedly. Even as I explain myself I know people still not getting what I'm trying to say because people have the wrong idea about what it means to be single.
One definition for single says, considered separately as something distinct or unique. I don't need someone to complete me or try to fill voids that they honestly can't fill. So many people think that they need a person to complete them or believe that they will fill a void in their life and it hits them hard when they see this is untrue. Once you get past the stage of infatuation reality sets in. Many people have perceived love to be like a fairy tale but that simply is not true. Ask anybody that's married or has been. Not long after the I do's are said the fantasy ends and reality takes shape. No one can complete you, fill the voids in your heart, or have you feeling all happy and giddy all the time. Once this is realized many people want out of the marriage saying that they're not happy anymore. The bottom line is if you're not happy with your own self you will not be happy with someone else. People need to wake up. It's gotten to the point where people have taken something as sacred as marriage which is supposed to be for richer or poorer till death do you part and treat it like any other type of relationship. You can take you're relationships filled with self imposed drama that will go to an inevitable dead end leaving you to go back to the drawing board. My time is precious and honestly I'm tired of wasting it. As for me I'm going to wait until the right time where I can devote the love that they deserve knowing I'm not complete with them but I am blessed to have them. Someone that I call my queen that I will accept in sickness and in health till death do us part.
Now I know a lot of people will pose the question how can I have this without having a boyfriend or even looking for one at the moment. First understand that you do not have to be boyfriend and girlfriend to go out on a date. Second I have to be patient, which I am working on. I don't want to devote my time and feelings to someone when I really don't know what they're about. I think you should be friends first, not just in words but in actions (no friends with benefits), get to see who they are, and then get into the whole courtship thing. This way you can avoid the unecessary drama and confussion of being with someone that you know you shouldn't be with or you know you really don't have a future with. Now I know a lot of people think I'm crazy for what I'm saying but to those that do know where I'm coming from I encourage you to stop settling. Stop going from relationship to relationship looking for wholeness that only God can give. Stop running around having sex with all these people. That will not make you happy. I know guys that have had sex with girl after girl and still feel empty. Besides you're special so treat yourself as such and stop selling yourself short. Please understand that I say these words out of love. I'm not trying to act all high and mighty I'm no better than anyone else. I just hope you take these words for what they are and at least think about your romantic situation. Be happy, confident, and secure with your own self then look for someone. Otherwise you're putting the cart before the horse.
One definition for single says, considered separately as something distinct or unique. I don't need someone to complete me or try to fill voids that they honestly can't fill. So many people think that they need a person to complete them or believe that they will fill a void in their life and it hits them hard when they see this is untrue. Once you get past the stage of infatuation reality sets in. Many people have perceived love to be like a fairy tale but that simply is not true. Ask anybody that's married or has been. Not long after the I do's are said the fantasy ends and reality takes shape. No one can complete you, fill the voids in your heart, or have you feeling all happy and giddy all the time. Once this is realized many people want out of the marriage saying that they're not happy anymore. The bottom line is if you're not happy with your own self you will not be happy with someone else. People need to wake up. It's gotten to the point where people have taken something as sacred as marriage which is supposed to be for richer or poorer till death do you part and treat it like any other type of relationship. You can take you're relationships filled with self imposed drama that will go to an inevitable dead end leaving you to go back to the drawing board. My time is precious and honestly I'm tired of wasting it. As for me I'm going to wait until the right time where I can devote the love that they deserve knowing I'm not complete with them but I am blessed to have them. Someone that I call my queen that I will accept in sickness and in health till death do us part.
Now I know a lot of people will pose the question how can I have this without having a boyfriend or even looking for one at the moment. First understand that you do not have to be boyfriend and girlfriend to go out on a date. Second I have to be patient, which I am working on. I don't want to devote my time and feelings to someone when I really don't know what they're about. I think you should be friends first, not just in words but in actions (no friends with benefits), get to see who they are, and then get into the whole courtship thing. This way you can avoid the unecessary drama and confussion of being with someone that you know you shouldn't be with or you know you really don't have a future with. Now I know a lot of people think I'm crazy for what I'm saying but to those that do know where I'm coming from I encourage you to stop settling. Stop going from relationship to relationship looking for wholeness that only God can give. Stop running around having sex with all these people. That will not make you happy. I know guys that have had sex with girl after girl and still feel empty. Besides you're special so treat yourself as such and stop selling yourself short. Please understand that I say these words out of love. I'm not trying to act all high and mighty I'm no better than anyone else. I just hope you take these words for what they are and at least think about your romantic situation. Be happy, confident, and secure with your own self then look for someone. Otherwise you're putting the cart before the horse.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Why People Ride Motorcycles!
I love the curves and heights, and all the smells. Also to feel the cool channels of air and the warms winds. I feel like I'm sailing in a ship on the high seas as the roads waves rise and fall. It can be wonderful.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Ideal Relationship
Just to be honest, open, and willing to do what ever it
takes to work through any situation. No secrets to feel
real love, to be equals and not expect the other to always
be perfect but to strive for being perfect together and
to have a strong physical and mental and emotional bond
which can't be broken no matter how tough things get and
to support each other in all aspects of our lives and not
to focus so much on material things but the things that
really matter. the things tha tmoney can't buy and
cherish the moments we have with each other and the
people in our lives and to not take those moments for
granted, and to just live life on lifes terms and to
know that my life is better for having him apart of it.
takes to work through any situation. No secrets to feel
real love, to be equals and not expect the other to always
be perfect but to strive for being perfect together and
to have a strong physical and mental and emotional bond
which can't be broken no matter how tough things get and
to support each other in all aspects of our lives and not
to focus so much on material things but the things that
really matter. the things tha tmoney can't buy and
cherish the moments we have with each other and the
people in our lives and to not take those moments for
granted, and to just live life on lifes terms and to
know that my life is better for having him apart of it.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Bitchology
BITCHOLOGY
When I stand up for
myself and my beliefs,
they call me a
bitch.
When I stand up for
those I love,
they call me a
bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things my own way, they call me a
bitch.
Being a bitch
means I won't
compromise what's
in my heart.
It means I live my life
MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to
tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am
defined as a
bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken,
opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch ,
so be it.
I embrace the title and
am proud to bear it.
B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything
When I stand up for
myself and my beliefs,
they call me a
bitch.
When I stand up for
those I love,
they call me a
bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things my own way, they call me a
bitch.
Being a bitch
means I won't
compromise what's
in my heart.
It means I live my life
MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to
tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am
defined as a
bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken,
opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch ,
so be it.
I embrace the title and
am proud to bear it.
B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything
Saturday, July 11, 2009
2 Women and A Rock
Two women rescued from Huron River in Ypsilanti
by Tom Gantert | The Ann Arbor News
Friday July 10, 2009, 11:27 PM
Two women were rescued from the Huron River in Ypsilanti after their raft was damaged at about 2 p.m. Friday, according to the Ypsilanti Fire Department.
The two women entered the river from the Peninsular Paper Dam. When they got near the bridge on LeForge Street, their inflatable raft hit a metal pole that was sticking out of the water, Fire Department Lt. Mike Kouba said.
The women got to a rock in the middle of the river and stayed there for fear the currents were too strong, Kouba said.
The Washtenaw County Sheriff's Department arrived with a motor boat to rescue the women with help from the fire department. No one was injured.
by Tom Gantert | The Ann Arbor News
Friday July 10, 2009, 11:27 PM
Two women were rescued from the Huron River in Ypsilanti after their raft was damaged at about 2 p.m. Friday, according to the Ypsilanti Fire Department.
The two women entered the river from the Peninsular Paper Dam. When they got near the bridge on LeForge Street, their inflatable raft hit a metal pole that was sticking out of the water, Fire Department Lt. Mike Kouba said.
The women got to a rock in the middle of the river and stayed there for fear the currents were too strong, Kouba said.
The Washtenaw County Sheriff's Department arrived with a motor boat to rescue the women with help from the fire department. No one was injured.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Too Good
When you were good, you were great and when you were bad, you weren't all that bad. Now you're just absent and you're too good at being gone.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Maybe this is Why I love Tea...
A woman is like a tea bag-
you never know how strong she is until she gets in hot water.
you never know how strong she is until she gets in hot water.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Einstein is a genius
"Imagination is more important than knowledge. For while knowledge defines all we currently know and understand, imagination points to all we might yet discover and create."
~ Albert Einstein
~ Albert Einstein
Country not ghetto big difference
it SUPER annoying when ppl that grew up in the middle of a corn field try to act all ghetto. Really, you're not fooling anyone.
I saw.
i saw the end before it began...you touched my heart and you touched my soul, you changed my life and all my goals...I've kissed your lips and held your hand. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell
"true and natural love"
to want is different than to know...to understand is different than to feel...know the difference
"true and natural love"
to want is different than to know...to understand is different than to feel...know the difference
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
All about Photos. :)
A photograph is a secret about a secret. The more it tells you, the less you know. -Diane Arbus
Once the ranks of the image being captured are penetrated the lens searches out the soul like a snake in a drain.
The world is harsh, unique, beautiful at times, horrible at times. it is time to capture that emotion and feeling in photographs.
Once the ranks of the image being captured are penetrated the lens searches out the soul like a snake in a drain.
The world is harsh, unique, beautiful at times, horrible at times. it is time to capture that emotion and feeling in photographs.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
What Sex can teach us.. Possibilities
People are different during sex- aspects of their private
selves come forth that would never appear in public
otherwise. It is in sex that we have an opportunity to
become most naked- not just physically vulnerable but
mentally and emotionally as well. We expose our fears, and
worse, our desires, to another's view and, in so doing, risk
their fear, their ridicule, their repulsion. Part of the
power of sex lies in how very frightening it can be; when we
walk out on that emotional tightrope, it can be a long way
down.
Of course, we hope not to fall. We hope to balance well, or
even to grow wings, to soar with a partner to pleasurable
heights that we could never reach alone. We hope that when
we lay ourselves bare before another's gaze, that he will
find us beautiful, desirable- that he will match us in this
risky game and lay themselves open as well. That is the lure
of intimacy, the promise of shared fears that may be
overcome by desire- leading in the end to great pleasure.
The rewards are potentially tremendous, but the risk is
always there as well.
But honest desire is rarely safe, pleasure always carries
with it possibility of pain. In the end, it seems that this
danger provides, for some at least, an access to a far
greater pleasure than what they might have otherwise found,
a pleasure that is intense enough to lure us onward, seeking
ever greater heights.
selves come forth that would never appear in public
otherwise. It is in sex that we have an opportunity to
become most naked- not just physically vulnerable but
mentally and emotionally as well. We expose our fears, and
worse, our desires, to another's view and, in so doing, risk
their fear, their ridicule, their repulsion. Part of the
power of sex lies in how very frightening it can be; when we
walk out on that emotional tightrope, it can be a long way
down.
Of course, we hope not to fall. We hope to balance well, or
even to grow wings, to soar with a partner to pleasurable
heights that we could never reach alone. We hope that when
we lay ourselves bare before another's gaze, that he will
find us beautiful, desirable- that he will match us in this
risky game and lay themselves open as well. That is the lure
of intimacy, the promise of shared fears that may be
overcome by desire- leading in the end to great pleasure.
The rewards are potentially tremendous, but the risk is
always there as well.
But honest desire is rarely safe, pleasure always carries
with it possibility of pain. In the end, it seems that this
danger provides, for some at least, an access to a far
greater pleasure than what they might have otherwise found,
a pleasure that is intense enough to lure us onward, seeking
ever greater heights.
And you ask why I'm not a server anymore...
The next time you're out eating at a restaurant, look at your server. Do you think they are really happy to be doing that job? The answer is no, they are not, but it's what we do, and we do it for the money so please help them out. It's a tougher job than you think and you should pay them accordingly!
There are SO many people out there flooding the restaurants w/o any knowledge of how to behave or tip. Here is a short guide for the general public to follow. Feel free to print out and store in your wallet and/or purse.
1. CHILDREN "THE LITTLE DEVILS":
If you have children, DO NOT let them, open and dump anything on the table (i.e.; salt, sugar, etc). IF YOU DO, you must leave an extra $5 for the server to clean up YOUR CHILD'S mess & to restock the now unusable wasted items. We are neither their babysitter nor their parent. The least you can do is pay us for the extra work. Also make sure you control your kids and don't let them scream or run around the restaurant. It's very distracting not to mention dangerous if they get ran over by a server with hot food in their hands.
2. "THE CAMPERS":
If you feel the necessity to stay for longer than 15 minutes after you pay, it's an extra $3 every 30 minutes. We make our money from the tables. If you are in one and we can't seat it, we don't make money.
3. "THE VERBAL TIP":
Telling a server they are the best server they've ever had is NOT a tip. If we are good, let us know by leaving us more money. We can't pay our bills on compliments. It's not that we don't appreciate the praise; it's just that if you say that and then leave a shitty tip it's an insult.
4. THE SALVATION PAMPHLETS:
Prayer cards and any other religious pamphlet is NOT a tip. Jesus doesn't pay the bills!! It is insulting that you assume we are w/o religion and must save us. Again, like...3, we can't pay bills w/prayer cards. We'd go to church on Sundays if it wasn't mandatory to work on Sundays because EVERYONE who goes to church follows it by eating out.
5. TIPPING:
It's not 1960. 18% is the MINIMUM amount of what you should be tipping your servers. We'll break it down for you....just look at the tax line and multiply by 2-3; this gives you your minimum tip amount. Remember, our companies pay us minimum wage ($3.65) and we are taxed on 10 percent of your meal automatically anyway. So if your meal is $100 and you leave $10 and we tip out $4-5 to the SA, then $4-5 to the bartender, and whoever else then we pay tax on 10 dollars and we make $5. It seems small but it adds up. How many times do you eat out per week and do this?
5A. If you are paying with a gift card don't assume you can put the tip on that card. And if you get a discount or someone gives you a free something tip on what the total of you bill should have been before the discount. You're already getting your meal cheaper, don't be a cheap ass on your server.
6. THE COMPLAINERS:
If you get a discount because of your food was prepared wrong or you just feel like being an asshole, don't take it out of our tip. We didn't cook it. The cooks get paid hourly regardless if the food sucks. However, we only make what you give us.
7. THE LATE ONES:
If you come into the restaurant 10 minutes before closing or any time near closing hurry up and order your food and get out. No better yet....don't come in AT ALL. I'd rather not have the 5 extra dollars you're going to leave on your $60 check. Thanks anyway... Closed means closed, not social hour. What no one seems to realize is that if customers are there, we are there no matter how late they stay. We recommend 24 hour establishments such as Denny's if you wish to sit into the wee hours of the night.
8. THE GREET:
When we come up to the table to greet you and we ask how you are doing please let us know. If you are in a bad mood we want to know that we are going to have to deal with your attitude the entire time. A confused stare or complete silence does not suffice as a reply to "How are you doing?" Also stop interrupting our greeting and say "I want coffee", "Can we get some bread?", or "What are the soups?" But please there is no need for life stories...we aren't telling you ours are we?
9. THOSE DAMN CELL PHONES:
Seriously! Get off your phone...This is probably the rudest thing to do. If you must be on your cell, at least keep your voice down in respect for other customers. If you are on your cell phone when we walk up to greet your table we will walk away and not return until you get off your phone. All we ask is MAYBE two minutes of your time. So get off your phone. If you want to be rude to the guest with you, by all means, go right ahead.
10. THE IMPATIENT ONES:
Ah yes... If a server comes to bring out your drinks and she/he is juggling about 5 things don't ask "Are we going to get some bread???" Do you not see their hands are full, does it look like you are going to get some bread at that moment. Clearly you will get bread, but unless the server can magically make bread appear, your question is ridiculous. Some people at your table might want their drink first, so that's what I'm bringing right now.
11. THE ONES WHO RUN YOUR ASS OFF:
If a server comes to your table and asks "is there anything else I can get for you?" I want you to tell me everything you need. Don't ask for one item, have me go and get it and on returning ask me for something else...and then keep doing it. Think of EVERYTHING you will need to make you happy and tell me ALL AT ONE TIME. We do have brains and can remember things... and last time we checked you aren't the only people in the restaurant, we have other tables that need us, and can't spend all night running back and forth.
12. SELF-SEATING:
Once again...it is not 1960, and most restaurants are not on a "seat yourself" policy. Don't just assume that the area near the bar is a place where you can sit yourself down wherever you want. There is actually a reason hosts put you where they do. Hosts try to rotate tables, ensuring that each server gets the same amount of tables, and also so that servers do not get three tables all at once. This helps guarantee you get the best service possible. Therefore don't ask to sit somewhere else once a host has brought you to a certain table either....RUDE. If you are unsure about the restaurant's policy and there is someone standing at the door staring at you when you walk in, you can bet that's a host and they will inform you. Waffle House is the only place it is acceptable to sit at a table still left dirty from the party seated there before...and please feel free to go there.
13. ORDER TAKING:
When the server comes by to take your order, don't say that you are ready if you really aren't. Although it may seem fun to keep your server standing at your table for endless amounts of time while you actually decide what you want, there are once again other tables and other things that need to be done.
14. ASKING TO SEE THE MANAGER:
If your food sucks and you ask to see the manager don't make us sound like incompetent assholes. We bust our asses to make you happy; we don't cook your food so please STOP taking it out on us
15. SUNDAYS
Just don't go out on Sundays. Seriously don't. Stay home and cook your own food. Sunday is no different then Monday-Saturday yet people love to shaft you on Sundays, why? So do us all a favor and stay home. Especially the first week of the month, we don't want a whole $2 out of your welfare check.
16. CHOOSING TO SIT IN FILTH:
If you go up to a bar top an there is no one sitting at it and you choose to sit at the 2 seats that where just occupied 30 seconds before, and need to be cleared wiped and re set. don't sit down and give a look of disgust because there is an ash tray that has 2 butts in it with a bar top that's sticky from the 4 jagerbombs that where done before the other people left and the wet bar napkins that are crumpled up next to the ashtray. Look around people!! It's no that hard of a concept! There's 30 other seats that you can sit it its not gonna kill you to move down 2 seats or at least give us a minute to grab a rag before you jump down our throats. Were not just gonna let it sit there dumb ass!
There are SO many people out there flooding the restaurants w/o any knowledge of how to behave or tip. Here is a short guide for the general public to follow. Feel free to print out and store in your wallet and/or purse.
1. CHILDREN "THE LITTLE DEVILS":
If you have children, DO NOT let them, open and dump anything on the table (i.e.; salt, sugar, etc). IF YOU DO, you must leave an extra $5 for the server to clean up YOUR CHILD'S mess & to restock the now unusable wasted items. We are neither their babysitter nor their parent. The least you can do is pay us for the extra work. Also make sure you control your kids and don't let them scream or run around the restaurant. It's very distracting not to mention dangerous if they get ran over by a server with hot food in their hands.
2. "THE CAMPERS":
If you feel the necessity to stay for longer than 15 minutes after you pay, it's an extra $3 every 30 minutes. We make our money from the tables. If you are in one and we can't seat it, we don't make money.
3. "THE VERBAL TIP":
Telling a server they are the best server they've ever had is NOT a tip. If we are good, let us know by leaving us more money. We can't pay our bills on compliments. It's not that we don't appreciate the praise; it's just that if you say that and then leave a shitty tip it's an insult.
4. THE SALVATION PAMPHLETS:
Prayer cards and any other religious pamphlet is NOT a tip. Jesus doesn't pay the bills!! It is insulting that you assume we are w/o religion and must save us. Again, like...3, we can't pay bills w/prayer cards. We'd go to church on Sundays if it wasn't mandatory to work on Sundays because EVERYONE who goes to church follows it by eating out.
5. TIPPING:
It's not 1960. 18% is the MINIMUM amount of what you should be tipping your servers. We'll break it down for you....just look at the tax line and multiply by 2-3; this gives you your minimum tip amount. Remember, our companies pay us minimum wage ($3.65) and we are taxed on 10 percent of your meal automatically anyway. So if your meal is $100 and you leave $10 and we tip out $4-5 to the SA, then $4-5 to the bartender, and whoever else then we pay tax on 10 dollars and we make $5. It seems small but it adds up. How many times do you eat out per week and do this?
5A. If you are paying with a gift card don't assume you can put the tip on that card. And if you get a discount or someone gives you a free something tip on what the total of you bill should have been before the discount. You're already getting your meal cheaper, don't be a cheap ass on your server.
6. THE COMPLAINERS:
If you get a discount because of your food was prepared wrong or you just feel like being an asshole, don't take it out of our tip. We didn't cook it. The cooks get paid hourly regardless if the food sucks. However, we only make what you give us.
7. THE LATE ONES:
If you come into the restaurant 10 minutes before closing or any time near closing hurry up and order your food and get out. No better yet....don't come in AT ALL. I'd rather not have the 5 extra dollars you're going to leave on your $60 check. Thanks anyway... Closed means closed, not social hour. What no one seems to realize is that if customers are there, we are there no matter how late they stay. We recommend 24 hour establishments such as Denny's if you wish to sit into the wee hours of the night.
8. THE GREET:
When we come up to the table to greet you and we ask how you are doing please let us know. If you are in a bad mood we want to know that we are going to have to deal with your attitude the entire time. A confused stare or complete silence does not suffice as a reply to "How are you doing?" Also stop interrupting our greeting and say "I want coffee", "Can we get some bread?", or "What are the soups?" But please there is no need for life stories...we aren't telling you ours are we?
9. THOSE DAMN CELL PHONES:
Seriously! Get off your phone...This is probably the rudest thing to do. If you must be on your cell, at least keep your voice down in respect for other customers. If you are on your cell phone when we walk up to greet your table we will walk away and not return until you get off your phone. All we ask is MAYBE two minutes of your time. So get off your phone. If you want to be rude to the guest with you, by all means, go right ahead.
10. THE IMPATIENT ONES:
Ah yes... If a server comes to bring out your drinks and she/he is juggling about 5 things don't ask "Are we going to get some bread???" Do you not see their hands are full, does it look like you are going to get some bread at that moment. Clearly you will get bread, but unless the server can magically make bread appear, your question is ridiculous. Some people at your table might want their drink first, so that's what I'm bringing right now.
11. THE ONES WHO RUN YOUR ASS OFF:
If a server comes to your table and asks "is there anything else I can get for you?" I want you to tell me everything you need. Don't ask for one item, have me go and get it and on returning ask me for something else...and then keep doing it. Think of EVERYTHING you will need to make you happy and tell me ALL AT ONE TIME. We do have brains and can remember things... and last time we checked you aren't the only people in the restaurant, we have other tables that need us, and can't spend all night running back and forth.
12. SELF-SEATING:
Once again...it is not 1960, and most restaurants are not on a "seat yourself" policy. Don't just assume that the area near the bar is a place where you can sit yourself down wherever you want. There is actually a reason hosts put you where they do. Hosts try to rotate tables, ensuring that each server gets the same amount of tables, and also so that servers do not get three tables all at once. This helps guarantee you get the best service possible. Therefore don't ask to sit somewhere else once a host has brought you to a certain table either....RUDE. If you are unsure about the restaurant's policy and there is someone standing at the door staring at you when you walk in, you can bet that's a host and they will inform you. Waffle House is the only place it is acceptable to sit at a table still left dirty from the party seated there before...and please feel free to go there.
13. ORDER TAKING:
When the server comes by to take your order, don't say that you are ready if you really aren't. Although it may seem fun to keep your server standing at your table for endless amounts of time while you actually decide what you want, there are once again other tables and other things that need to be done.
14. ASKING TO SEE THE MANAGER:
If your food sucks and you ask to see the manager don't make us sound like incompetent assholes. We bust our asses to make you happy; we don't cook your food so please STOP taking it out on us
15. SUNDAYS
Just don't go out on Sundays. Seriously don't. Stay home and cook your own food. Sunday is no different then Monday-Saturday yet people love to shaft you on Sundays, why? So do us all a favor and stay home. Especially the first week of the month, we don't want a whole $2 out of your welfare check.
16. CHOOSING TO SIT IN FILTH:
If you go up to a bar top an there is no one sitting at it and you choose to sit at the 2 seats that where just occupied 30 seconds before, and need to be cleared wiped and re set. don't sit down and give a look of disgust because there is an ash tray that has 2 butts in it with a bar top that's sticky from the 4 jagerbombs that where done before the other people left and the wet bar napkins that are crumpled up next to the ashtray. Look around people!! It's no that hard of a concept! There's 30 other seats that you can sit it its not gonna kill you to move down 2 seats or at least give us a minute to grab a rag before you jump down our throats. Were not just gonna let it sit there dumb ass!
These are the words that I am now living by..
If you have a hidden agenda, leave me out of it. I would prefer for you to come as you are, and not hiding behind a mask
Be unselfish, I yearn to see the innocence from this world of the tainted and corrupted, learn to forgive for those who's done you wrong.
Let Karma play her role, and sit back and relax
Let the moments consume you and channel that to mould it into something beautiful to share the world
Some of you wonder: Why do nice girls finish last? My answer: We're the ones helping others push forward and standing behind our loved ones all the way. Therefore we don't, because there is no last place. And if we all do the same for each other, we stand infinite. Keep ya head up baby. A smile goes a long way.Who says good girls cant have fun? Live your life to the fullest, work hard, play even harder, cherish your friends and family, love your man, and at the same time, keep your responsibilities and priorities straight.
....your probably curious on who i am.... .. Im just the girl next door you havent met...
If you're probably interested in who i am. I'm nothing out of the ordinary, just someone who doesnt really ask for much, but the simple things in life. I live simply and independantly. I'm constantly on the go, but I try to make time for everyone. I never ask for anything more than what I already have in my life and I have great people who I hold close to my heart who inspire me to be a better person everyday. They make things interesting and keep me smiling. Mwah!! Just wanna say that I have already met the most amazing people in my life, they totally blow my mind, and make me jump for joy whenever I hear from them. But.. I can always make room for more....
If you want to know anything about me, feel free to ask.
Isn't being human intriguing? The emotions, complications and what people do to justify themselves. I will not judge or be biased because, lets face it, we're all guilty of letting our emotions consume us, and what comes around always goes around whether you like it or not.
Love that makes your heart beat like a jackhammer to the raging anger that overcomes you. Build it up or see it all come crashing down... if you haven't already been corrupted in some form or another by this world, just wait.. unless you are resilient enough to follow your morals and heart. If you cannot be in control, then at least be the one with the clearest conscience. ... just remember: things are only as complicated as you make them to be.I like to put all my emotions into my poems. They do not necesarily reflect what is going on in my life (though I have yet to dedicate them, when the time comes), I just want you to feel it as I have ...... ..so let it go and set yourself free...
I love lyrics that make you wanna rock out, spontaneous actions that makes me laugh and a wild imagination that shocks me..
Be unselfish, I yearn to see the innocence from this world of the tainted and corrupted, learn to forgive for those who's done you wrong.
Let Karma play her role, and sit back and relax
Let the moments consume you and channel that to mould it into something beautiful to share the world
Some of you wonder: Why do nice girls finish last? My answer: We're the ones helping others push forward and standing behind our loved ones all the way. Therefore we don't, because there is no last place. And if we all do the same for each other, we stand infinite. Keep ya head up baby. A smile goes a long way.Who says good girls cant have fun? Live your life to the fullest, work hard, play even harder, cherish your friends and family, love your man, and at the same time, keep your responsibilities and priorities straight.
....your probably curious on who i am.... .. Im just the girl next door you havent met...
If you're probably interested in who i am. I'm nothing out of the ordinary, just someone who doesnt really ask for much, but the simple things in life. I live simply and independantly. I'm constantly on the go, but I try to make time for everyone. I never ask for anything more than what I already have in my life and I have great people who I hold close to my heart who inspire me to be a better person everyday. They make things interesting and keep me smiling. Mwah!! Just wanna say that I have already met the most amazing people in my life, they totally blow my mind, and make me jump for joy whenever I hear from them. But.. I can always make room for more....
If you want to know anything about me, feel free to ask.
Isn't being human intriguing? The emotions, complications and what people do to justify themselves. I will not judge or be biased because, lets face it, we're all guilty of letting our emotions consume us, and what comes around always goes around whether you like it or not.
Love that makes your heart beat like a jackhammer to the raging anger that overcomes you. Build it up or see it all come crashing down... if you haven't already been corrupted in some form or another by this world, just wait.. unless you are resilient enough to follow your morals and heart. If you cannot be in control, then at least be the one with the clearest conscience. ... just remember: things are only as complicated as you make them to be.I like to put all my emotions into my poems. They do not necesarily reflect what is going on in my life (though I have yet to dedicate them, when the time comes), I just want you to feel it as I have ...... ..so let it go and set yourself free...
I love lyrics that make you wanna rock out, spontaneous actions that makes me laugh and a wild imagination that shocks me..
Dear Asshole
Sittin' back hatin' myself because I loved u
Knowin u were never worth tha shyt that I did for u
And what u put me thru?
Nigga fuck u!
I think if u were dead tha world' be better without u
Yea u disgust me
It makes me sick to think I let u fuck me
Guess yur unlucky
'Cause not again will u get tha chance to touch ME
Knowin u were never worth tha shyt that I did for u
And what u put me thru?
Nigga fuck u!
I think if u were dead tha world' be better without u
Yea u disgust me
It makes me sick to think I let u fuck me
Guess yur unlucky
'Cause not again will u get tha chance to touch ME
Friday, May 22, 2009
Do you need to talk?
This is your chance to get it off your chest... so please take your bra off...
** What the fuck guys? Really?.... "A" for effort though...
** What the fuck guys? Really?.... "A" for effort though...
Thursday, May 21, 2009
*&*
Judge me & I'll prove you wrong.
Tell me what to do & I'll tell you off.
Say I’m not worth it & watch where I end up.
Call me a bitch & I'll show you one.
Fuck me over & I'll do it twice as bad.
Call me crazy, but you really have to idea =)~
Euphoric
In everything lies a dichotomy, this is the darker half of my personality. The side of me that likes to party all night and sleep all day. I am not mainstream. I see things different than most. This is a place for me to remember why I have fallen in love
If you don't contribute, we don't distribute. If ya don't know, it ain't ya business. And if he ain't willin to sweat for you, don't let him sweat on you.
If you don't contribute, we don't distribute. If ya don't know, it ain't ya business. And if he ain't willin to sweat for you, don't let him sweat on you.
From the Words of my Client
.... Man I give up on sex... no its alright I give up. *5 minutes later he finds his bag of mixed nuts*... man I'm so sick of all these peanuts... their so much worse than cashews... I need to make my own nut bag.... ----moral of the story..
I give up on sex... I need to make my own nut bag.
I give up on sex... I need to make my own nut bag.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Ypsilanti Guys
Sometimes guys holla at you in the ghetto of Ypsi and then you holla back louder and scare them and they just stop hollering at you.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
True Love "Flip" Side
in your life time you dont find to many people to love mabe lust. so when i find some one to love i hold on thru all the drama the stuggle the pain and hurt the fights and kaos.when the storm is over you"ll see that i'm still there,to give you all the love that you need.love is never easy,whatever comes easy is not worth anything.I'll be here when you need me,because I'm not Going to let Go.
Monday, May 4, 2009
...His ilk...
He's the kind of guy who thinks the solution to the worlds problem could be found at the tip of his dick.. crude jerk!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
The Quiz says I'm Outgoing.. and couragous... hmm..
Your Outgoingness or Courage
Your an outgoing kid who will not let anything push you into the crowd. Your up for anything and everything and will let nothing get you down. You do things your own way, and you know how to get things done. Though, not everyone will see your adventurous charm as a wonderful quality. You just need to understand that not everything is always your way, and work around it.
My Archive Book mark
http://www.my-diary.org/read/?read=68276 <<< Online Archive of my old Poems
http://shanna2005.livejournal.com/ << Semi Old Online Journal
http://sheepkiller.deadjournal.com/ << Real Old Online Journal
http://shanna_2005.tripod.com/?404=Y << Really Old Self Webpage
http://shanna2005.livejournal.com/ << Semi Old Online Journal
http://sheepkiller.deadjournal.com/ << Real Old Online Journal
http://shanna_2005.tripod.com/?404=Y << Really Old Self Webpage
The Ending note on Stephen Munyaradzi Mbidzo
March 12, 1982-March 13, 2009 Stephen Munyaradzi Mbidzo, 27, of Mt. Pleasant, passed away on Monday, March 13, 2009, in Lansing.A Mass of Christian Burial for Stephen will be held on Thursday, April 16, at 11 a.m. at Sacred Heart Catholic Church with Fr. Loren Kalinowski officiating. Interment will follow in Calvary Cemetery. The family will receive friends on Wednesday, April 15, from 7-9 p.m., at Clark Family Funeral Chapel and on Thursday, April 16, from 10 a.m. until the time of service at Sacred Heart Catholic Church. There will be a prayer service Wednesday evening at 7:30 p.m. at the funeral chapel.
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Body in river is man from G. Rapids
ST. JOHNS - Investigators are trying to piece together the last days in the life of a 27-year-old man, originally from Zimbabwe, whose body was found Thursday in the Grand River.
Authorities on Monday identified the man as Stephen Munyaradzi Mbidzo of Grand Rapids.
Mbidzo was last seen March 13 at the Village at Chandler Crossings, an apartment complex in Bath Township, Clinton County sheriff's officials said.
He was with a friend and met some people at the complex, said Sheriff Wayne Kangas.
Investigators are trying to determine who was with Mbidzo last.
"There's a lot of people involved and a lot of things involved. It's going to take some time to sort out," Kangas said. "A lot of people need to be interviewed to find out what happened to this guy."
The death is considered suspicious.
An autopsy was performed Friday, but no visible signs of trauma were found, said Detective Sgt. Fritz Sandberg.
Mbidzo's body was found in a secluded section of the river in Eagle Township. He was wearing only socks.
His identity was determined through a fingerprint analysis, Kangas said.
Investigators are awaiting the results of toxicology tests, which could take several months.
Mbidzo's parents, who live in Mount Pleasant, reported him missing to Michigan State Police in late March, Kangas said.
Gugulethu Mabuza, of East Lansing, who knew Mbidzo, said Monday in a telephone interview that he is trying to figure out what happened.
"It's an absolute mystery," he said. "I wish I knew more to tell you."
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Cause of death, ID of man pulled from river unknown*************************************************************************************
Official: No visible signs of trauma found in autopsy
An autopsy was performed Friday, but no visible signs of trauma were found, said Clinton County sheriff's Detective Sgt. Fritz Sandberg.
He said the man was black, between 20 and 40 years old. He was wearing only socks.
"I can't tell you any more than that, as there were not any identifiable tattoos or markings on the body," Sandberg said.
He said it could not be determined how long the man's body had been in the water.
Police are awaiting toxicology and laboratory results.
The death is being called suspicious.
A nearby resident saw the body Thursday morning partially submerged in the water and called 911.
Sandberg described that stretch of the river, north of State Road, as extremely secluded.
Anyone with information is urged to call 
(989) 227-6523
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(989) 227-6523.Fed Up
*fed up with school. cuz i'm working insanely hard.. and i'm sick of it so i'm craming 2 years worth of classes in 1 1/2 by taking 5 classes a semester (18 credits) so i can graduate by next x-mas.. but who knows if i'll even have a job.. they say it'll pay off one day but who knows, i see people working at mcds who have bachelor degrees..
*fed up with my job... ya great job.. i sit and watch a man sleep and keep him from dying.. and i stay up all night... and at my other job with watching people piss away their money getting themselves shit faced... and my 3rd job with my life skills coaching job.. because no matter what help i try to do for my client i keep on running into red tape and how i can't do everything I'm capable of doing...
*fed up with my social life.. because true friends that i have to count on are one if a million.. and yet when its comes down to it i'm alone.. and i'm having fun trying to deal with the fact it is seriously me and my dog against the world...
*fed up with relationships... real ones do not exist.. boot call user ones exist all around.. bam bam thank you mam.. oh you got morals? sorry i can't handle your friendship... so you get ditched to the curb because you supposedly think you are right in things...
*fed up with money because I work 3 jobs and work my ass off, and get paid double digits at two of them yet after everything is done and paid i'm still butt broke...
fed up with people in general becaus this world is literally going to hell... from the disrepsectful kids in class that talk when you're trying to listen to the teacher.. the kid who has the odacity to talk on his fucking cell phone during class! wtf! or the guys here that think they are the gods gift to women.. and the next best thing next to sliced bread. egos out of this world.. but you're the
needy female that can't go on living with out them!
and
*fed up with myself because i eat right, i eat healthy do the whole do it right thing.. frickin work out almost everyday and do swim every day. yet i am not changing.. and the dr is telling me that i cannot do all of this because of my knee.
so yes i'm fed up
to the brim.. i'm done.
*fed up with my job... ya great job.. i sit and watch a man sleep and keep him from dying.. and i stay up all night... and at my other job with watching people piss away their money getting themselves shit faced... and my 3rd job with my life skills coaching job.. because no matter what help i try to do for my client i keep on running into red tape and how i can't do everything I'm capable of doing...
*fed up with my social life.. because true friends that i have to count on are one if a million.. and yet when its comes down to it i'm alone.. and i'm having fun trying to deal with the fact it is seriously me and my dog against the world...
*fed up with relationships... real ones do not exist.. boot call user ones exist all around.. bam bam thank you mam.. oh you got morals? sorry i can't handle your friendship... so you get ditched to the curb because you supposedly think you are right in things...
*fed up with money because I work 3 jobs and work my ass off, and get paid double digits at two of them yet after everything is done and paid i'm still butt broke...
fed up with people in general becaus this world is literally going to hell... from the disrepsectful kids in class that talk when you're trying to listen to the teacher.. the kid who has the odacity to talk on his fucking cell phone during class! wtf! or the guys here that think they are the gods gift to women.. and the next best thing next to sliced bread. egos out of this world.. but you're the
needy female that can't go on living with out them!
and
*fed up with myself because i eat right, i eat healthy do the whole do it right thing.. frickin work out almost everyday and do swim every day. yet i am not changing.. and the dr is telling me that i cannot do all of this because of my knee.
so yes i'm fed up
to the brim.. i'm done.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Retartedly Happy
I am stupid happy about completely unplanned surprises. I am totally caught off guard and I don't mind in the slightest. I think I need to be tranquilized. :)
I got to run this morning. I haven't been able to for the past two days because of rain and wind. I'm not that hardcore. It's amazing how quickly a body can get used to NOT doing something. I got so tired in the second mile today, but I'm glad I completed it. The endurance is building! I almost never get winded at practice anymore and I can walk forever. I'd like to do some tromping around on foot this summer. I'm definitely in need of some exploration time.
I got to run this morning. I haven't been able to for the past two days because of rain and wind. I'm not that hardcore. It's amazing how quickly a body can get used to NOT doing something. I got so tired in the second mile today, but I'm glad I completed it. The endurance is building! I almost never get winded at practice anymore and I can walk forever. I'd like to do some tromping around on foot this summer. I'm definitely in need of some exploration time.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Get this crap out of my head
shit is definitely hitting the fan.. enough to fucking break it..my x adam has always been my best friend.. between him and montoya and stephen.. well hes off doing him. chris left and is now at fort sill doing him.. and then come t find out stephen my like best friend for the last 4 years come to find out it has been a bold face fucking lying the entire time... even for the 2 months we dated.. it has been nothing but him taking advantage of me..
that ijust found out from his pregnant fiance from her finding my number in his phone records.. because he is now missing.. and its like I look around.. and besides jenni and my dog.. if I diappeared absolutely no one would notice..and my birthday was my reality check.. I try to ignore it and just distract myself by staying insanely busy working 2 jobs.. and doing classes full time and going to therec working out all my frustrations. so ya me in a nutt shell.. im about to leave this country and not look back.. to what... just go out and be a europe hippy traveling every where... im seriously considering it... I've just been sitting back here realizing im by myself.. im on my own by myself doing me.. now I gotta go do something and go somehwere for me..I guess the one thing that really helped clean out my friends list was a lot of my friends are guys and then they got girlfriends who have major insecurities.. and im so sick of girls that are so ignorant they can't handle the thought that I can be friends with their ma and not be banging them on the side.. so me nd whoever just stop talking because of their new found gf.. and its like dang
everyone is movng on doing their thing.. shootmy ex tim that I was dating the summer b4 adam and I dated.. he got friggin married last month.. what kind of asshole sends us a message.. hey happy birthday.. just wanted to let u know that I got married too ...... what kind of crap is that.
So ya the crap that is flowing around my head..
that ijust found out from his pregnant fiance from her finding my number in his phone records.. because he is now missing.. and its like I look around.. and besides jenni and my dog.. if I diappeared absolutely no one would notice..and my birthday was my reality check.. I try to ignore it and just distract myself by staying insanely busy working 2 jobs.. and doing classes full time and going to therec working out all my frustrations. so ya me in a nutt shell.. im about to leave this country and not look back.. to what... just go out and be a europe hippy traveling every where... im seriously considering it... I've just been sitting back here realizing im by myself.. im on my own by myself doing me.. now I gotta go do something and go somehwere for me..I guess the one thing that really helped clean out my friends list was a lot of my friends are guys and then they got girlfriends who have major insecurities.. and im so sick of girls that are so ignorant they can't handle the thought that I can be friends with their ma and not be banging them on the side.. so me nd whoever just stop talking because of their new found gf.. and its like dang
everyone is movng on doing their thing.. shootmy ex tim that I was dating the summer b4 adam and I dated.. he got friggin married last month.. what kind of asshole sends us a message.. hey happy birthday.. just wanted to let u know that I got married too ...... what kind of crap is that.
So ya the crap that is flowing around my head..
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