I’m going through withdrawals as your body calls
I feel myself shake as I wake
The sound of your voice or the scent of your cologne easily sends me to my doom
Just the thought of your touch can blow me up like a balloon
As I lay here consumed filled with so much lust that I might bust
The yearning desire is like an undying fire
Burning continually thinking of you and me
Then I sit up and sigh thinking of why
I should be able to past this test that is put on my flesh
It comes against my will and sends a cold chill
Going up my spine not wanting to decline after all your mine
But is this really true if I’m not married to you
You and I are fine but our actions need changing
Trying to fight off these hormones that are raging
Especially when your body has my number on speed dial
Not wanting to ignore the call that’ll keep me busy for a while
Still I have to think twice because I’ve been bought with a price
But I fiend like an addict convinced that I have to have it
Plus when we do it I feel so close and eventually I’ll propose
Well that’s a possibility but would it be hurried by my own heightened sexuality
Feeling like such a mess going through this stress knowing you’ll contest
Saying my point of view is distorted and detached from reality
Then do whatever you can to appeal to me
Appeasing my request because it’s best realizing what will come next
That time when I’m weak and we creep in the sheets
You got what I crave so I put away my conscious and misbehave
I want a fix just like I’m a stoner
Not knowing how to say no when you’re on top of me while you got a boner
After all I care about you and I believe you feel the same
But the things that we do cause me to feel shame
And these feelings will linger until I have your wedding band on my finger
Being on the level of an alcoholic needing rehab
Trying to be good while my body wants to be bad and I hope you’re not mad
At this point it’s more than sex we make love
But I’m not married to you so I’m cheating on the one above
Please don’t look and stare saying I’m being unfair
I know that we have a connection deeper than this addiction that we share
Maybe if we stop it’ll take our relationship to a higher position
As we seek help from the great high physician
No longer having our minds being mad
Making it through the process of rehab
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
Never make anyone a priority when they only see you as an option
People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel - Maya Angelou
Single..This is why
A lot of people have been either asking me or wondering why am I single. Anybody that knows me understands that I can have someone with ease. This is not to sound cocky it's the truth. So they wonder if I can be with someone right now why don't I. Honestly it would be nice to have a guy right now but I have too many things going on in my life right now to drag somebody in the middle of it. I think about it a lot but it's just not as deep as it is to others. It's sad to me that so many people seemingly can not go on with life without a significant other. It's even sadder that a lot of people just act wild and have sex with so many people that they loose count. Why don't I have a boyfriend? Mainly because it's not the right time. Plus I don't want to settle for just anyone. I have standards and I want the other person to have some as well that refuses to settle just because I turn them on or I'm a nice girl. Why don't I just act a fool and have sex with all these guys that's more than willing to do so because it's not beneficial to me. I've struggled with having sex before. I'm not going to lie it was fun but honestly it's not worth the drama. Plus most importantly my body is a temple and honestly I refuse to allow someone to come in while someone else comes out as if my body is a revolving door. Trust and believe besides the person that I've had sex with the only other person that will be able to claim that truthfully will be the one that I am with whole heartedly. Even as I explain myself I know people still not getting what I'm trying to say because people have the wrong idea about what it means to be single.
One definition for single says, considered separately as something distinct or unique. I don't need someone to complete me or try to fill voids that they honestly can't fill. So many people think that they need a person to complete them or believe that they will fill a void in their life and it hits them hard when they see this is untrue. Once you get past the stage of infatuation reality sets in. Many people have perceived love to be like a fairy tale but that simply is not true. Ask anybody that's married or has been. Not long after the I do's are said the fantasy ends and reality takes shape. No one can complete you, fill the voids in your heart, or have you feeling all happy and giddy all the time. Once this is realized many people want out of the marriage saying that they're not happy anymore. The bottom line is if you're not happy with your own self you will not be happy with someone else. People need to wake up. It's gotten to the point where people have taken something as sacred as marriage which is supposed to be for richer or poorer till death do you part and treat it like any other type of relationship. You can take you're relationships filled with self imposed drama that will go to an inevitable dead end leaving you to go back to the drawing board. My time is precious and honestly I'm tired of wasting it. As for me I'm going to wait until the right time where I can devote the love that they deserve knowing I'm not complete with them but I am blessed to have them. Someone that I call my queen that I will accept in sickness and in health till death do us part.
Now I know a lot of people will pose the question how can I have this without having a boyfriend or even looking for one at the moment. First understand that you do not have to be boyfriend and girlfriend to go out on a date. Second I have to be patient, which I am working on. I don't want to devote my time and feelings to someone when I really don't know what they're about. I think you should be friends first, not just in words but in actions (no friends with benefits), get to see who they are, and then get into the whole courtship thing. This way you can avoid the unecessary drama and confussion of being with someone that you know you shouldn't be with or you know you really don't have a future with. Now I know a lot of people think I'm crazy for what I'm saying but to those that do know where I'm coming from I encourage you to stop settling. Stop going from relationship to relationship looking for wholeness that only God can give. Stop running around having sex with all these people. That will not make you happy. I know guys that have had sex with girl after girl and still feel empty. Besides you're special so treat yourself as such and stop selling yourself short. Please understand that I say these words out of love. I'm not trying to act all high and mighty I'm no better than anyone else. I just hope you take these words for what they are and at least think about your romantic situation. Be happy, confident, and secure with your own self then look for someone. Otherwise you're putting the cart before the horse.
One definition for single says, considered separately as something distinct or unique. I don't need someone to complete me or try to fill voids that they honestly can't fill. So many people think that they need a person to complete them or believe that they will fill a void in their life and it hits them hard when they see this is untrue. Once you get past the stage of infatuation reality sets in. Many people have perceived love to be like a fairy tale but that simply is not true. Ask anybody that's married or has been. Not long after the I do's are said the fantasy ends and reality takes shape. No one can complete you, fill the voids in your heart, or have you feeling all happy and giddy all the time. Once this is realized many people want out of the marriage saying that they're not happy anymore. The bottom line is if you're not happy with your own self you will not be happy with someone else. People need to wake up. It's gotten to the point where people have taken something as sacred as marriage which is supposed to be for richer or poorer till death do you part and treat it like any other type of relationship. You can take you're relationships filled with self imposed drama that will go to an inevitable dead end leaving you to go back to the drawing board. My time is precious and honestly I'm tired of wasting it. As for me I'm going to wait until the right time where I can devote the love that they deserve knowing I'm not complete with them but I am blessed to have them. Someone that I call my queen that I will accept in sickness and in health till death do us part.
Now I know a lot of people will pose the question how can I have this without having a boyfriend or even looking for one at the moment. First understand that you do not have to be boyfriend and girlfriend to go out on a date. Second I have to be patient, which I am working on. I don't want to devote my time and feelings to someone when I really don't know what they're about. I think you should be friends first, not just in words but in actions (no friends with benefits), get to see who they are, and then get into the whole courtship thing. This way you can avoid the unecessary drama and confussion of being with someone that you know you shouldn't be with or you know you really don't have a future with. Now I know a lot of people think I'm crazy for what I'm saying but to those that do know where I'm coming from I encourage you to stop settling. Stop going from relationship to relationship looking for wholeness that only God can give. Stop running around having sex with all these people. That will not make you happy. I know guys that have had sex with girl after girl and still feel empty. Besides you're special so treat yourself as such and stop selling yourself short. Please understand that I say these words out of love. I'm not trying to act all high and mighty I'm no better than anyone else. I just hope you take these words for what they are and at least think about your romantic situation. Be happy, confident, and secure with your own self then look for someone. Otherwise you're putting the cart before the horse.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Why People Ride Motorcycles!
I love the curves and heights, and all the smells. Also to feel the cool channels of air and the warms winds. I feel like I'm sailing in a ship on the high seas as the roads waves rise and fall. It can be wonderful.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Ideal Relationship
Just to be honest, open, and willing to do what ever it
takes to work through any situation. No secrets to feel
real love, to be equals and not expect the other to always
be perfect but to strive for being perfect together and
to have a strong physical and mental and emotional bond
which can't be broken no matter how tough things get and
to support each other in all aspects of our lives and not
to focus so much on material things but the things that
really matter. the things tha tmoney can't buy and
cherish the moments we have with each other and the
people in our lives and to not take those moments for
granted, and to just live life on lifes terms and to
know that my life is better for having him apart of it.
takes to work through any situation. No secrets to feel
real love, to be equals and not expect the other to always
be perfect but to strive for being perfect together and
to have a strong physical and mental and emotional bond
which can't be broken no matter how tough things get and
to support each other in all aspects of our lives and not
to focus so much on material things but the things that
really matter. the things tha tmoney can't buy and
cherish the moments we have with each other and the
people in our lives and to not take those moments for
granted, and to just live life on lifes terms and to
know that my life is better for having him apart of it.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Bitchology
BITCHOLOGY
When I stand up for
myself and my beliefs,
they call me a
bitch.
When I stand up for
those I love,
they call me a
bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things my own way, they call me a
bitch.
Being a bitch
means I won't
compromise what's
in my heart.
It means I live my life
MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to
tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am
defined as a
bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken,
opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch ,
so be it.
I embrace the title and
am proud to bear it.
B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything
When I stand up for
myself and my beliefs,
they call me a
bitch.
When I stand up for
those I love,
they call me a
bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things my own way, they call me a
bitch.
Being a bitch
means I won't
compromise what's
in my heart.
It means I live my life
MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to
tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am
defined as a
bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken,
opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch ,
so be it.
I embrace the title and
am proud to bear it.
B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything
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