Few know this about you.
It is a huge and well kept secret
You need to be sexually submissive
And surrender yourself to a man.
It overwhelms your mind.
You know you can not do this with the man you are with
Or ones you date.
There is history involved, or
It would disrupt the power dynamics within your relationship, or
It wouldn't be sexy and erotic...
...only awkward.
Day in and day out you need to be in control of your world and life.
It is exhausting, unfulfilling, but necessary.
Too many many battles have been won to relinquish this control.
Your submissive nature becomes your secret.
You are feminine and a woman.
A sexy woman.
A sexual woman.
And you want to feel and hear and see a man's passion.
For you.
And know you bring out this primal animal in him.
With someone new, someone discreet, someone very special
You can.
You share no history.
Only your secret.
He knows this about you.
And you have given him permission to take you.
Take you against a wall
Touch you without reservation.
Instruct you and lead you and tell you what to do
Make you feel like a woman in the ways only a man can.
He softens your edge
By releasing your submissiveness
He doesn't abuse you, only frees you
To express the true sexual you.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Life Was Not Always this Sheltered
My curfew was the street lights- and dad didn't call my cell, he'd yell "time to come home,now! I played outside with friends not online. If I didn't eat what my mom made me then I didn't eat. Hand sanitizer didn't exist, but you COULD get your mouth washed out with soap. And I drank water out of a hose and survived
Saturday, April 9, 2011
I Used to Love Him
I remember the exact day I fell in love with ___. Little did I know how much ___ would be a part of my life. __ was young, nieve, confused and sometimes innocent, and sometimes as mischievious as I was.
And as I grew up; __ grew with me, and along the way it took on my baggage, my dreams
I felt __ and __ felt me, and I know everyone who loves the music, feels the same as I do
For many people __ was that first friend, the first to talk to us; the first to understand. __ has always been that kind of friend to me
And like any relationship, I watched it grow, I watched it change. Ever thought you'd see __ grow up? From this up into that.
The union of __ to the mainstream was a hard thing to imagine. __ was always this personal regional thing that belonged to just me. Now anyone could get a piece of __; I knew I was going to have to share- and that was hard to get use to.
___ is my best friend no body believes in you more then I do.
Just when you think you know everything about __, it finds a way to surprise you and remind you why you fell in love in the frst place.
so whats the difference between this and that? It's simple; its like saying you love somebody, and being in love with somebody.
I'm the main person talking about how __ is loosing its way getting in touch with it's roots, getting back to why we fell in love in the first place.
Or is it about forward movement innovate and move on? One minute its how we need this or to stay the same; then the next it's how things need to change. I do want things to change, just don't like how things have changed- and I didn't know this is how it was gonna turn out.
If we look back it'll make us see things; things that we never knew were there before; if we just STOP and find that thing that we know is missing then we can build on that.
I don't know why your heart doesn't do what your mind tells it. I always thought I would outgrow my relationship with __. I never thought it was a fad like many. But I never thought it could grow and mature; I thought it would be an adolescent memory I'd look back on, like a crush on the captain of the football team.
But I realized we had more than that, much more.
We have a history, a friendship, we listen to each other, we laugh together, we finish each others sentences.
I don't have to pretend with __; and he doesn't have to pretend with me.
My feelings have never been more clear; and I know they will never go away.
I used to love, I still do; and always will.
It took me so long because I was scared and hard headed.
And as I grew up; __ grew with me, and along the way it took on my baggage, my dreams
I felt __ and __ felt me, and I know everyone who loves the music, feels the same as I do
For many people __ was that first friend, the first to talk to us; the first to understand. __ has always been that kind of friend to me
And like any relationship, I watched it grow, I watched it change. Ever thought you'd see __ grow up? From this up into that.
The union of __ to the mainstream was a hard thing to imagine. __ was always this personal regional thing that belonged to just me. Now anyone could get a piece of __; I knew I was going to have to share- and that was hard to get use to.
___ is my best friend no body believes in you more then I do.
Just when you think you know everything about __, it finds a way to surprise you and remind you why you fell in love in the frst place.
so whats the difference between this and that? It's simple; its like saying you love somebody, and being in love with somebody.
I'm the main person talking about how __ is loosing its way getting in touch with it's roots, getting back to why we fell in love in the first place.
Or is it about forward movement innovate and move on? One minute its how we need this or to stay the same; then the next it's how things need to change. I do want things to change, just don't like how things have changed- and I didn't know this is how it was gonna turn out.
If we look back it'll make us see things; things that we never knew were there before; if we just STOP and find that thing that we know is missing then we can build on that.
I don't know why your heart doesn't do what your mind tells it. I always thought I would outgrow my relationship with __. I never thought it was a fad like many. But I never thought it could grow and mature; I thought it would be an adolescent memory I'd look back on, like a crush on the captain of the football team.
But I realized we had more than that, much more.
We have a history, a friendship, we listen to each other, we laugh together, we finish each others sentences.
I don't have to pretend with __; and he doesn't have to pretend with me.
My feelings have never been more clear; and I know they will never go away.
I used to love, I still do; and always will.
It took me so long because I was scared and hard headed.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
My Online Profile
If you read NOTHING on my profile, SKIP TO THE BOTTOM AND READ #7. Save me and yourself the trouble.
Hi! I'm (insert awesome name here) and to be upfront, I am looking to hang out, make friends, date, go out, ect ect with-out commitment. I am not opposed to it, just not actively looking for it. I feel that a great relationship begins with an amazing friendship. Which is something that takes time to develop.
It says to talk about your interests and what nots.... well here it goes!
I am a social work student slated to graduate in a year. I can't wait! Hopefully when I get done I will be going for my Masters degree in nursing after I work for a little while.
I am highly goal driven and once I set my eye on something, people best get outta the way. I have worked hard for everything I have and nothing has been handed to me. I am one of those "get what I want" type of girls.
Outside of school life I enjoy a few activities like spending time with my amazing friends, reading, or playing with my dog.
People will often say that the skin is the bodies larges erogenous organ. (If you don't know what erogenous means, Google it and please don't email me.) I don't tend to agree. For me, it's the brain. Nothing, absolutely nothing appeals to me more than intelligence. You are not required to be Einstein, but you are required to be able to keep up in a conversation with me. Its amazing how many cannot. Nothing between the ears? So sorry, nothing between my legs.
I am horribly blunt and kinda a **** at times. Trust me, that only comes out when someone is repeatedly stupid. I tend to lack a filter between my brain and mouth, what I think pops out more often than not. I have a horribly gross and perverse sense of humor on top of it all.
Speaking of babies, I have a 5 year old Pit Bull and a beautiful kitty that live with me. Oh and 2 snakes. a 6ft Black Pine, and a 3 ft Columbian Red Tail. My dog is firmly believes she is a 5lb lap dog, has severe mommyitis, is brilliant and I rescued her from the streets. My cat is also a rescue, thinks she can talk (and talks a lot) and is a huge attention whore.
Really you should email me because I am just awesome like that. I am never short of intellectual and entertaining conversation or amusing quirks. I love having fun and meeting new people as well as doing or trying new and different things. Plus I have really, really ridiculous stories, all true too. :)
Me = Awesome, You = Awesomeness
Me + You = awesome awesomeness... or.... SUPER AWESOME!
(I have moments where I can be just a tad (understatement) bit retarded, that was one of them. Enjoy!)
I have to add, after a plethora of emails that I:
(This list is getting longer by the day...)
(If your not careful, you may end up on my list...)
1. Do not speak ebonics or engrish and HATE emails with a lack of grammer use.
2. Don't do stupid. Really now? Don't email me with Hey! Wanna F*** because that's going to get you laughed at. Intelligence is the biggest turn on.
3. If your profile states anywhere in it "I hate filling these things out" Seriously. Its ONLINE DATING! If you hate it so much grow a pair and go meet a person somewhere off the internet. It only makes you sound like whiny lil ****.
4. Am not here for your amusement. I am here for mine. I will not text/cyber/webcam or meet you after 2 emails. I will however harass the sh*tout of you for expecting that.
5. I DON'T DO ONE NIGHT STANDS
6. I don't **** stupid
7. If you have never had, are not willing to get, cannot provide or have no IDEA what I mean when I say sexual health paperwork and the different diseases that encompasses.... DO NOT BOTHER EMAILING ME! My vagina is nice and healthy and I like to keep it that way. Not a fan of having an internal petri dish in my pants.
8. Just because #7 is listed does NOT mean I am going to run off and fcuk you just because you have paperwork. It takes more than that to get in my pants.
9. Learn to court a lady. Charm her.
10. 99.999...% of the time I am not interested in ****ing you.
11. Yes, I have a cell phone, yes I have texting, no your not getting my number, no I am not texting you. So please, don't embarrass yourself and save yourself some rejection. If I want your number, I will ask for it.
12. Having a penis (I don't care if it is the size of New Jersey.) does NOT qualify you as "Having what it takes."
Hi! I'm (insert awesome name here) and to be upfront, I am looking to hang out, make friends, date, go out, ect ect with-out commitment. I am not opposed to it, just not actively looking for it. I feel that a great relationship begins with an amazing friendship. Which is something that takes time to develop.
It says to talk about your interests and what nots.... well here it goes!
I am a social work student slated to graduate in a year. I can't wait! Hopefully when I get done I will be going for my Masters degree in nursing after I work for a little while.
I am highly goal driven and once I set my eye on something, people best get outta the way. I have worked hard for everything I have and nothing has been handed to me. I am one of those "get what I want" type of girls.
Outside of school life I enjoy a few activities like spending time with my amazing friends, reading, or playing with my dog.
People will often say that the skin is the bodies larges erogenous organ. (If you don't know what erogenous means, Google it and please don't email me.) I don't tend to agree. For me, it's the brain. Nothing, absolutely nothing appeals to me more than intelligence. You are not required to be Einstein, but you are required to be able to keep up in a conversation with me. Its amazing how many cannot. Nothing between the ears? So sorry, nothing between my legs.
I am horribly blunt and kinda a **** at times. Trust me, that only comes out when someone is repeatedly stupid. I tend to lack a filter between my brain and mouth, what I think pops out more often than not. I have a horribly gross and perverse sense of humor on top of it all.
Speaking of babies, I have a 5 year old Pit Bull and a beautiful kitty that live with me. Oh and 2 snakes. a 6ft Black Pine, and a 3 ft Columbian Red Tail. My dog is firmly believes she is a 5lb lap dog, has severe mommyitis, is brilliant and I rescued her from the streets. My cat is also a rescue, thinks she can talk (and talks a lot) and is a huge attention whore.
Really you should email me because I am just awesome like that. I am never short of intellectual and entertaining conversation or amusing quirks. I love having fun and meeting new people as well as doing or trying new and different things. Plus I have really, really ridiculous stories, all true too. :)
Me = Awesome, You = Awesomeness
Me + You = awesome awesomeness... or.... SUPER AWESOME!
(I have moments where I can be just a tad (understatement) bit retarded, that was one of them. Enjoy!)
I have to add, after a plethora of emails that I:
(This list is getting longer by the day...)
(If your not careful, you may end up on my list...)
1. Do not speak ebonics or engrish and HATE emails with a lack of grammer use.
2. Don't do stupid. Really now? Don't email me with Hey! Wanna F*** because that's going to get you laughed at. Intelligence is the biggest turn on.
3. If your profile states anywhere in it "I hate filling these things out" Seriously. Its ONLINE DATING! If you hate it so much grow a pair and go meet a person somewhere off the internet. It only makes you sound like whiny lil ****.
4. Am not here for your amusement. I am here for mine. I will not text/cyber/webcam or meet you after 2 emails. I will however harass the sh*tout of you for expecting that.
5. I DON'T DO ONE NIGHT STANDS
6. I don't **** stupid
7. If you have never had, are not willing to get, cannot provide or have no IDEA what I mean when I say sexual health paperwork and the different diseases that encompasses.... DO NOT BOTHER EMAILING ME! My vagina is nice and healthy and I like to keep it that way. Not a fan of having an internal petri dish in my pants.
8. Just because #7 is listed does NOT mean I am going to run off and fcuk you just because you have paperwork. It takes more than that to get in my pants.
9. Learn to court a lady. Charm her.
10. 99.999...% of the time I am not interested in ****ing you.
11. Yes, I have a cell phone, yes I have texting, no your not getting my number, no I am not texting you. So please, don't embarrass yourself and save yourself some rejection. If I want your number, I will ask for it.
12. Having a penis (I don't care if it is the size of New Jersey.) does NOT qualify you as "Having what it takes."
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